mind from ordinary angle

deepest fear

2010-07-11T21:09:00.000-07:00

In my deepest fear, I saw you left me
Thousand of love words you gave me
suddenly become the words I hate

You said Its our faith
you said life is about choices
yet, you are the one who left

In my deepest fear
I can only cry while you left
In my deepest fear
I can only see you walked away
without a words

dulu dan sekarang

2010-01-06T19:11:00.000-08:00

waktu itu aku tidak melihat mu
waktu itu aku tidak merasakan mu

sekarang aku mencari mu
sekarang aku merindu mu

terjebak dalam sinar mata sayu mu
terjebak dalam senyum simpul mu

mencari, merindu dan memimpikan mu
bener, semua itu aku rasakan
ketika aku kehilangan mu

semua sama

2010-01-05T20:22:00.000-08:00

sounds stupid...tapi baru di sadari semua lelaki itu sama
and so I met this guy, he is sweet and polite man that I know
never and will never going to hurts you, he's old enough to have sex with but guess what he never even been kissed :) i know..in his age it is a little bit impossible that the fact that he never kiss a women other then his mother and sister.

So here I am, in shock when I know he never been kissed, sementara gue dengan semena-mena main asal cium aja, singkat cerita, I teach him how
~sigh~ feels like a naughty girl

anyways...times goes by, and its more then just a kiss
we make out..yes, we make out...
tapi...rasa-rasanya aku ngak pernah deh, ngajarin dia untuk lebih dari sekedar kissing
gak pernah ngajarin ngeraba2 and never teach him how to MAKE OUT
sampai aku bilang ke dia, kayaknya kamu jadi nakal deh, dan dia cuma bilang
siapa yah, yang ngajarin? hihihi....

maybe that is what they called animal instinct in human
hahaha...and yes, semua laki laki sama saja...they still wanna enjoy your body
but what makes this man different is he wants me, body and soul

here we are

2009-10-29T02:53:00.000-07:00

and so, we are here once more
sharing loves, laugh and tears
though never thought of it
we will be in this lovely stage again

still...it spooks me to start
cause, once it was ended with tears

and now, all I asked
stay with me, always....
cause I gave you my all

hello...world

2009-06-02T21:11:00.000-07:00

It's been a while...quite long actually
since my last post..

suddenly, Time wasn't on my side lately
terlalu klise kalo aku bilang sibuk
karena mmg gak sibuk-sibuk banget
its just I don't have....passion lately =)

so forgive me for abandoned my own world

pusing!

2009-03-23T21:07:00.000-07:00

OMG, I just don't know what I feel right now
something just not right when you're not around
something in his way, woos me
Thinking, those silly things we made
and those crazy time we had
it's just makes me smile and brighten my day

I didn't wish this would happened
All I know, I had fun with you, and so do u, I supposed
I don't want to fall in love with you
cause I know its just not right

Ahh....pusiiiinggggggggg

you

2009-01-21T01:15:00.000-08:00

How are you? How is your life lately?
Did you have fun? are you busy?
All questions rumbling in my mind
as I listening to your song

This feeling, right now, I can't describe
somehow confusing me
It's not love, but I do know I miss you
It's not love, but I do know I need you
and I do hope it is not love

Fake Sun

2008-11-18T18:54:00.000-08:00

Your my Sun, My fake Sun
Who shines my days
Though its not bright
But I still can see the path in front of me

Your my Sun, My dear artificial Sun
My one and only lights
Who always come after the dawn

Though my one and only wish
That you will never stop rising each day
But, you suddenly stop shinning above me
Stop shadowing my life
I lost my sun

Till we met again...

2008-10-28T21:09:00.000-07:00

Sometimes our dreams faded along the way

And when your hear the silence whisper

You’ll think of me

In the next world, we may meet again

And thats when you’ll called my name

once again…

and realized, how I meant for you

don't know

2008-09-25T23:47:00.000-07:00

Am I wrong to choose my own path?
Am I wrong to choose my own destiny
or am I wrong to even think that I was wrong?

I tried to escaped from what I felt
but I just couldn't
Even if I expose myself to the brilliant wind
It won't go away, I look at myself
and I hate it

for what I've done
for what couldn't do
for everything

Dua Orang

2008-08-05T20:26:00.000-07:00

Aku tahu, Ia menatap ku
Walau dari kejauhan
Ia tersenyum seakan aku menyapanya

Aku tahu, Ia membelai ku
Walau tidak bersentuhan sekalipun
Ia berbisik walau aku tak mendengar

Aku tahu, Ia mengagumi ku
Walau Ia ada tambatan hatinya
Begitu juga aku

Dua orang yang terjebak dalam cinta & kesetiaan
Kekaguman dan kebosanan
Dua orang yang mencari udara segar
Untuk bernafas, walau sesaat

Do people changes?

2008-07-31T20:23:00.000-07:00

akhir2 ini gue jadi sering chatting sama temen SMA yang sedikit membuat gue amazed sama dia, tiba2 aja jadi asik ngobrol sama dia, jadi asik cela-celaan, dan lebih membuat gue amazed itu dia bisa memberi gue satu masukan (walau agak maksa) yang berharga dan yg gk pernah kepikiran sama gue ato temen-temen gue lainnya padahal nasihat dia itu simple banget dan logis! sangkin amazednya gue sampe bilang "ternyata ngobrol sama elo tuh asik yah, gak nyangka gue lo bisa se asik ini di ajak curhat2an" and he just reply "baru tau!" hihihi jutek nya sedikit tidak berubah

Then, gue curhat2an sama temen cewe gue yg lain biasalah membicarakan si temen gw ini, gue bilang aneh ya, dia bisa berubah bgt, asik banget di ajak ngobrol, bisa becanda dan bisa curhat! secara dulu tuh dia itu terkenal sebagai Mr. Cool, cuek, judes, jutek, semuanya yg jelek2 tp berubung muka dia cakep, tinggi dan Mr. Famous alhasil banyak lah cewe-cewe naksir dia (uhm..not me) eh, temen cewe gue cuma menjawab dengan santai dan singkat namun padat
"yah wajar dong ka, secara dia itu mantan fans lo!" ihhh....ha....tidak membantu!

I don't believe that people just simply changed they changed because they want it to changes
not just simply changed, it need times, experiences , perlu satu titik yang membuat orang menjadi berubah

Say Anything

2008-07-22T21:42:00.000-07:00

Say anything....
that can hurt me
even if its meaningless
even if it's just a sweet lie

Say anything...
to my lying heart
Say anything...
Whatever you want to say

Say anything.....
just don't tell me you love me
need me, adore me
it will dry my every tears

The Smile

2008-07-14T19:43:00.000-07:00

I saw that smile again
A smile that has been missed
in many moon
been gone since you left me

and in one night
one smile put a rainbow
vividly in my dream which I try to reached
but its vanished with the dawn
as I woke up

need a holiday

2008-07-04T19:33:00.000-07:00

There is a time when you hates people, when you want to be somewhere else
some new place, where no one knows you, not to be known by people
no "hi" no meaningless words.

Place where people can just see you the way you want it too, no judgment
so you can express anything you want without being fear, shy or whatever it is
ah..is that place exist?

~sigh~ I think I need a holiday, ne?

Di bukit

2008-06-30T02:41:00.000-07:00

Di bukit itu aku menunggu mu
belaian angin tak mampu merayu ku
tak mampu menghapus ingatan aku akan kamu

Setiap jejak yang kau pijak di rumput
akan aku ikuti, tanpa sadar
setiap wangi yang melekat pada angin
seperti mengingatkan aku pada mu
menghantarku ke tempat ini

Di bukit itu aku masih menunggu

in dreams

2008-06-18T19:19:00.000-07:00

Once again
I saw you in my dream
with that questioned face
that I never forget

did you regret for leaving alone?
or did you sad looking at me
alone and clueless?

Hint me so I can walk longer
Guide me so I walk in the path
and please....
never leave even only in my dreams

Tentang Rindu

2008-06-07T00:32:00.000-07:00

Seperti kerinduan pada Allah yang tidak terlihat
pada sahabat yang jauh
pada anak yang merantau
pada kekasih yang jauh di mata

Kerinduan yang tidak berujung
Kerinduan yang tidak berbatas
Kerinduan pada orang terkasih
yang telah meninggalkan kita

Menipiskan batas antara
Keikhlasan dengan Melupakan
Menipiskan batas antara
Mimpi dan realita
Sungguh...perasaan yang menggalaukan

The Line

2008-05-29T00:41:00.000-07:00

I said
I wanna start something new
but you told my hand so tight
so I can't walk any longer

I said
I don't need you but you know I was lied
and you strokes my hair
whispering those magic words

Yet, here I am
still waiting in a thin line
of Love and Adore
With no final words

help!

2008-05-29T00:35:00.000-07:00

Tell me, somebody tell me
Why this winding road will never end
Help me, somebody help me
I'm loosing my breath

Did you ever love me as much as I did?
Did you even remember me as much as I did?

I'm still calling out your name
here in my dreams and days

Even if I'll finally all alone
I still love you

Untuk Semua Ibu

2008-05-13T20:30:00.000-07:00

Dalam Cahaya aku duduk sendiri
Ia memanggilku dengan suara lembutnya
Tapi aku masih termenung
Ia membelaiku dengan tangan lembutnya
Tapi aku masih menangis
dan ia tetap menemani ku

Dalam semua hal
Semakin ku lihat kelembutan
Tanpa pamrihnya

Dalam semua hal
Semakin ku temukan cinta
dan keagungan dirinya

Happy Mother's Day

A Chance

2008-05-06T21:19:00.000-07:00

Limitless undying love
That I gave you once
Its slowly shattered
Like an endless rains
It drops
Run away blindly
as they trying to escape
You always questioning me
Yet you know the answer
Tied me to your heart
So I can love you with no limit
One more time

Cerita Masa Lalu

2008-05-04T19:49:00.000-07:00

Maybe it’s just a feeling
That we never shared
Because I suddenly longing for your figure
No, it’s not love
Because I’m sure we’re just admiring each other
And now here I’m
Missing you alone

~sigh~
tiba-tiba gue kangen banget sama temen gue yang satu ini, sahabat terbaik yang pernah ada dan memang udah mungkin 10 tahun gak ketemu tapi kita masih keep in touch. Pertama kenal sama dia itu udah lama banget waktu gue masih jadi pemberontak orangtua (ABG) gue masih SMP sedangkan dia kalo gak salah baru lulus SMA emang jauh banget bedanya, tp lucunya begitu kenal gue sama dia langsung deket kalo istilah jaman sekarang langsung klik lah, pada hal bisa di bilang kenalnya juga kagak ada sama sekali embel-embel PeDeKaTe, just pure friendship, mungkin karena jarak umur yang jauh dan waktu itu tampang gue juga masih culun abis, beside he’s got a girlfriend! So we’re like sibling, brother and sister.

Sejak saat itu, gue sama dia itu nempel banget bahkan lebih deket gue sama dia ketimbang gue sama kakak-kakak gue sendiri, padahal sama sekali gak ada rasa suka, naksir atau apalah, Cuma yang gue tau rasa nyaman dan happy aja kalo sama dia, pun kalo ketemu gak ada rasa kangen jadi gue yakin seyakin-yakinnya kagak ada yang namanya cinta, lagian umur segitu gue masih belum suka sama cowo (ia..agak telat).

Then, setiap pertemuan pasti ada perpisahan, masa akhir SMP gue harus pindah kota saat itu gue bete banget baru dapet temen asik udah harus pindah (lagi!) dia pun kelihatannya bete banget, katanya waktu itu dia bakal kangen jahilin gue (oh yes..dia teramat sangat jahil) tapi yah…mau gimana lagi, I have to go…and before I left he sang this sweet song from Mr.BiG wild world, dan dia bilang dengerin liriknya baik-baik yah…waktu itu gue mana ngerti maksudnya apaan secara gue lemot dot com gitu dan gue sih seneng-seneng aja. Dan belakangan setelah bertahun-tahun gue denger lagu itu baru gue ngerti

Now that I’ve lost everything to you
you said you wanna start something new
it’s breaking my heart you’re leaving
………coz I don’t wanna see you sad girl
don’t be a bad girl…baby I love you…….

Years after years, waktu liburan sekolah gue balik ke kota and things had changes, gue udah mulai naksir cowo yang kebetulan banget pindah ke kota itu (what a world!) dan pastilah gue ketemu temen gue itu sambil jalan-jalan bareng sama cowo yang gue taksir and well…he short of jadi supir erhmmm bodyguard gue kencan bertiga (gak banget deh)

nah yang buat gue jadi berpikir something happen between us (me and my friend) itu perlakuan dia yang selama ini gue anggap biasa aja…seperti klo lagi nyebrang dia pasti megangin tangan gue dan kalo lagi jalan-jalan kita pasti gandengan, sampe cowo yang gue taksir pun bingung dan sempet nanya gue sama dia itu pernah pacaran yah..hahahahha…..temen-temen gue dan dia pun pada nanyain, and maybe I’m being denial, gue terus-terusan mikir gk ada apa-apa gue udanh terlanjur anggap dia kakak.

Sampe pada akhir masa liburan dia nganter gue balik ke rumah tempat gue nginep, time to say goodbye..haduh…kalo di inget-inget itu canggung banget jadinya, I can see trough his eyes ada yang harus dia bilang, dan saat ini lah tiba-tiba gue nyadar perlakuan dia sama gue selama ini itu memang a bit special, semua lagu-lagu, kejahilan dan perhatian dia selama ini tuh beda, mungkin gue ke ge-eran atau apa lah…tapi sueeerrr….sepertinya dia mau bilang sesuatu tp gak jadi dan akhirnya dia Cuma bilang I’ll be missing you sambil megang pipi gue and he gave me a hug dan gue cuma senyum mungkin juga blushing, speechless abis!

Then that’s it……, No magical words, nothing
But we’re still friend and he’s happily married

Makanya gue yakin rasa kangen itu ada hanya karena rasa sayang dan saling mengagumi yang dulu ada gak pernah di ucapkan, tapi gue juga seneng kata-kata semacam itu gak pernah keluar dari mulut dia, mungkin kalo sempet keluar hubungan gue sama dia mungkin gak sebaik saat ini.

~sigh~

The Aftermath

2008-05-01T19:40:00.001-07:00

See the world's blue skies
Freely flying birds
Sunny sunshines
Hello from the sky

Beautiful like sunday morning
But soon it all will fades
As they all become our victims
of our own careless

Don't let the earth cry
for it would flooded you
Don't let the earth cry
for the sun will burn you die

Don't..just don't

......sigh......

2008-04-29T20:14:00.000-07:00

I hold you in my dream
and you looked back
the way I wanted too

But your eyes aren't for me
But I still hopping there's love
in each hugs that you gave

Though you never
really meant to be with me

Hati kita

2008-04-24T20:47:00.000-07:00

Tanpa suara pun
kita dapat saling mendengarkan
Tanpa suara pun
kita dapat saling mengerti
karena hati kita berdekatan
satu...

Sekeras apa pun cacian mu
Aku tidak akan dengar
Sekeras apa pun makian ku
Kamu tidak akan dengar
Karena hati kita bertolak belakang
jauh...

Jadi, biarlah....
aku mencari hati ku, aku perbaiki
agak hati ku dapat mendengar hati mu
Meski tanpa suara sekali pun

Mahalnya Pendidikan

2008-04-17T19:43:00.000-07:00

Di deket rumah saya ada tempat les mata pelajaran yang cukup terkenal untuk ukuran Medan, aku sendiri sering kesana karena di dalemnya ada kantin kecil, sekedar beli snack, tempatnya bagus sih kelihatannya nyaman kelas2 nya pake AC trus juga ukuran kelasnya kecil-kecil jadinya jumlah murid dalam 1 kelas terbatas, sepertinya supaya membuat kelas bisa fokus. Di receptionnya terpajang foto2 siswa yang berprestasi mendapatkan beasiswa di universitas2 terkenal di negri sebrang, dalam hati sih...wah boleh juga nih tempat memacu siswanya untuk mendapatkan beasiswa di universitas ternama.

Berhubung udah lumayan kenal sama receptionnya (secara sering beli cemilan) iseng-iseng nanya biaya les di sana, OMG...mahal gila! untuk anak SD aja mencapai harga 5 jt-an / semester untuk mata pelajaran killer(Math, IPA, IPS) gila...gila...apa lg harga untuk anak SMP-SMA??? dalem hati sih..No wonder...siswa-siswa yang les di sana itu berasal dari kalangan atas (baca: sangat ATAS) mobil-mobil yang nganter siswanya juga gak nanggung... dari yang termurah saya lihat itu Inova sampe alphard, kadang Merc...ck..ck..ck.... blm lagi liat seragam asal sekolah mereka ketahuan banget yang uang sekolahnya di atas 500rb/ bln bahkan puluhan juta.

Gila yah, pendidikan sekarang mahal banget! yg buat gw miris itu...yah Beasiswa yang seharusnya di terima orang yg kurang mampu dari segi ekonomi malah di terima anak-anak orang kaya yang terang-terangan tanpa beasiswa pun orang tua mereka mampu nyekolahin mereka kemana mereka mau! bukannya iri, memang ia mereka yang berhak mendapat beasiswa adalah mereka yang pintar-pintar...tp kalo di lihat lebih lanjut lagi mereka yang kurang mampu apa ada kesempatan untuk mendapat pelahjaran tambahan? untuk sekolah di sekolah inpres aja pun mungkin sulit, tersendat-sendat, kadang makan aja kagak! padahal mungkin mereka memiliki kepintaran yang sama hanya tidak di asah saja.....

Salah pemerintah kah? saya rasa tidak juga, seandainya tempat2 kursus itu mau sedikit dermawan setidaknya mereka bisa memberikan pelajaran gratis bagi siswa yang kurang mampu namun pintar yang bisa mereka asah, dan sukur-sukur bisa dapet beasiswa, bagaimana dengan saya? klo saya pintar sih mau-mau saja...berhubung otak saya pas-pasan dalam hal pendidikan setidaknya saya masih perduli dengan cara memberikan buku-buku (walaupun bekas) ke taman bacaan di pelosok-pelosok walau tidak banyak tapi saya yakin itu cukup berguna.

Saya sangat bersyukur, walaupun orangtua saya tidak kaya...tidak punya alphard tapi saya di berikan pendidikan yang lebih dari cukup dari orang tua, mereka memberikan kebebasan memilih universitas yang saya mau, dari saya TK - Kuliah mereka memberikan pendidikan yang menurut saya tidak murah karena semua sekolah yang pernah saya jalani semua A-list school biarpun pindah2 kota :), walaupun mungkin dalam menyekolhakan kami, Ayah harus benar-benar berhemat, berkorban banyak demi kami, karena Ayah selalu berpendapat sekolah itu nomer 1.

Can we?

2008-03-25T19:48:00.000-07:00

Find a place where we could talk
for this words are flowing like an endless rain
inside my brain

A cup of tea would be a place for us
to see our future and to show you how I feel
Can we?
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Sebenarnya saling cinta dan saling sayang, hanya saja banyak alasan yang membuat saya dan dia terpisah, dari soal kerjaan sampai latar belakang kami yang sayangnya tidak pernah kami bicarakan secara lanjut dan detail
sampai titik dimana saya kebingungan akan hubungan ini
apa benar cinta, atau hanya memaksa untuk tetap bersama karena sudah terbiasa?

Dilanjutkan atau tidak, masih ngambang....
Tapi mimpi dan keinginan masih ada

To dad

2008-03-14T19:25:00.000-07:00

Lost, lost, lost
those words are always stick around me
since you left me
no way to turn this winding road
just round and round
I thought a goodbye would be enough
but, hey!
The fact that I'm stuck in here
it's killing me

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Find me a way
For I'm bored for death with everything around
Should I travel around the world?
To search something
that I don't even know what

It seems unfair
the way you left me
It seems unfair
this wordless feeling inside me

No winds
could ease this tears
No angel
could save me
Oh, dear...
I think I'm dying

-----------------------------------

This Tears, This wounded heart
Perhaps will never getting better
For I couldn't find a way out
and no one does
Even with prayers
in many moons

still missing you dad

four season

2008-03-05T18:28:00.000-08:00

When the breeze comes
it brings two broken hearted
try to build a new one
as the icy winter start to melts

As the sun comes
they start to love each other
surfing in the summer
soak their soul in the sun

Then the falls comes
everything looks weird
everything turn upside down
see each other without barrier
start to think again

And when finally
the icy cold winter come
starting to frozen their soul
trapped their soul

and there's no way to run

The Soul Talk

2008-03-05T18:23:00.000-08:00

Ssstt....listen
Hear my soul
For I scream and loud
calling your name

See that raven?
Come towards your soul
to bring mine
to you

As this soul try to reach you
As this soul looking for you
and finally...
When winds and raven couldn't reach you
There's nothing I can do

Senyuman dan Airmata

2008-03-03T19:12:00.000-08:00

Senyum itu
begitu indah, riang dan gembira
menghapus susah dan duka
yang ia rasakan

Airmata itu begitu lirih
mengalir menyayat jiwa
setiap kita melihatnya

Begitu lama ia simpan
airmata dalam senyuman
agar kita tidak iba, tidak meremehkan

Tapi manusia tetap manusia
butuh manusia
karena senyuman dan airmata
akan selalu datang dan menutupi

Sebelum bunuh diri

2008-03-03T19:04:00.000-08:00

Kemarin, Ia menyapaku
Gadis baik namun rapuh jiwanya
Ia banyak bercerita
Tentang apa yang ia rasa
Ia pernah miliki
Ia genggam
dan Ia alami

Kemarin, Ia menyapa ku
lagi dan lagi bercerita
melanjuti semalam di tepi jembatan itu
Ia tau dan menunggu ku
karena aku selalu melewatinya

Hari ini, Ia tidak menyapa ku
Ia tidak bercerita tentang kelanjutannya
Tapi ia melanjutkan apa yang ia inginkan
Kebebasan....
yang Ia dapatkan ketika terjun dengan bebasnya
Ia terlupa....,terbebas
Akan beban
Akan penat
Akan lara

" a shot won't kill ya!"

2008-02-24T22:58:00.000-08:00

She walks alone into the alley
looking for a temporary fantasy land
"a shot won't kill ya!" so she's been told
The next day I found her
still in that alley
staring at me with millions of question
hopeless eyes, lost in that fantasy land
that she made instantly
oh dear, she's been trapped with no escape
trapped with those killing words
" a shot won't kill ya!"

For those who haven't try but thought about it
you better not!
it kills since the first shot!

Still

2008-02-17T19:04:00.000-08:00

Even in this pain,

I still longing for your memory

I’ve gotten use to get hurt

My hand painted in bloods

I still didn’t feel the pain

Cause your soul that I can’t reach

Is like and endless rain in my eyes

Stuck in midpoint

Where I can’t find out the way to get over you

Ah… maybe it’s an eternal melody

That you sang to cut my vein

Still remembering and longing for you
~sigh~

Me and People

2008-02-15T18:45:00.000-08:00

I was walking down the street

I saw

That clouds starts following me

Its all happen so suddenly

One day

I was walking down the street

And hopping something will happen to me

Again and nobody will found out

Cause I’m gonna be high and higher

I knew and I saw that monster people

Starts hurting each other

From up here

..........

2008-02-01T22:36:00.001-08:00

In the spring of my life

They took you away from me

Left me with this eternal anguish

Tears won’t enough to wipe away

your memory in my head

No matter what I do

You’ll always in my mind

And my soul….

If there a way for me to forget you

Please tell me….

So that the rain can soak my pain

Kematian Sang Jendral

2008-01-29T19:27:00.000-08:00

Mungkin dan saya yakin hampir semua bloggers indonesia mungkin juga dunia membahas berita seputar kematian Pak Harto, saya juga tentunya tidak mau ketinggalan, biar di bilang gaul!
Anyway, saya pikir sudah sewajarnya Pak Harto meninggal secara dia udah tua dan sakit-sakitan di bilang tiba2 juga enggak, toh dia udah 24 hari di RS jadi semua orang sebenernya sudah harus mempersiapkan kemungkinan terburuk kan?

Terlepas dari dosa-dosanya terhadap bangsa kita, harus dan mau tidak mau di akui kalau dia itu cukup berjasa juga dalam pembangunan ekonomi Indonesia dan ini juga di akui dunia, kita ada gedung MPR / DPR yg unik sampe2 si Malingsia pun sedikit menirunya, kita ada jalan Tol(lol) yang berbentuk daun semanggi, kita punya taman mini indonesia dan lagi2 si malingsia ikut2an buat taman mini malingsia di Melaka sana. Tapi tidak bisa dipungkiri juga, di masa-masa pemabangunan kita yang gemilang itu banyak juga orang2 yang berkesempatan untuk memperkaya diri yang akhirnya memperburuk suasana Indonesia selama berpuluh-puluh tahun.

Intinya, yang meninggal ya sudah lah, gak ada gunanya di salahkan toh juga bukan Pak Harto aja kan yang salah, kalau mau jujur dan buka-bukan (jangan ngeres!) mungkin satu gedung MPR/DPR itu kena Imbasnya di tambah juga Bos-Bos dan pengusaha-pengusaha besar juga kena akibatnya....mungkin kita akan semakin mundur dalam semua bidang

Anyway, Selamat Jalan Pak Harto
Jasa dan Dosa mu mungkin akan selalu di ingat

Waltz with me

2008-01-27T23:30:00.000-08:00

Waltz with me
until the dawn meets the light
For I'll never left you

This pain, this sorrow
will end by the winds someday
when you finally see my heart

Waltz with me
for this will be our last dance
and I'll finally left you
with an endless sorrow

Vision

2008-01-27T18:30:00.000-08:00

In a strange vision,

I saw your figure come towards me

Hold my hand and teach me how to pray

To believe in faith and each path of my life

In vision, I was forgiven

For having my doubt in my fates

And tell me not to trade my soul

To anyone else but you

And I believe you,

For this vision is real

In the eye of my heart

Gadis Kecil

2008-01-25T19:55:00.000-08:00

Lihatlah gadis kecil itu termenung di beranda rumahnya
mungkinkah sekecil itu merenungi nasib?
atau ia sedikit menyadari realita hidup
yang terkadang tidak adil

Lihatlah gadis kecil itu merengek
berharap sekilas dari pandangan ibunya
berharap perhatian dan kasih sayang
sepenuhnya ia miliki

Sebelumnya ketika jiwa itu belum ada
Gadis itu berbangga hati
ia akan mempunyai teman
ia akan menjadi dewasa

Setelahnya....ia menyadari
kelahiran jiwa baru telah menganggu sedikit hidupnya
Entah apa namanya Iri, Senang, Sedih...
sedikit banyak kosa kata dalam otaknya bertambah
Ah..ia bertambah dewasa

Setelahnya ....ia menyadari
jiwa baru itu, di sebut adik
yang harus ia jaga dan sayang

Look at me

2008-01-24T19:20:00.000-08:00

This pain is too real

Each time I’m longing for your memories

Somewhere over my hearth

I still need you

You,

Did you ever love me?

Did you ever notice me?

Or it’s just me,

Loving you from a distance

Look at me

I’m loosing my breath

Though I want what’s best for you

Though it means you’re leaving me

It hurts but it maybe the only way

melody kills

2008-01-22T20:16:00.000-08:00

A melody dances in a mess

Rumbling my heart

Just like you did

The scars you left me with

is just too deep to heal

Though I’m use to getting hurt

Ah... It’s just too deep

If only you could feel what I feel

This heart won’t hurt

Wondering when it would heal

Will someone take me to a final happiness?

Untitled

2008-01-20T18:05:00.000-08:00

The sounds of violin cuts my vein

Through the melody into my deepest heart

Sing a song still can’t bring you back

From above

If it’s fates

Should I forgive them for taking your soul away from me?

For this heart still hurting for what happen

Please, tell me

Cause I can’t hold this tears

From falling any longer

overflowing memories

2008-01-20T17:54:00.000-08:00

These overflowing memories drowned me

Into the deepest ocean

Holds my breath

Ah... Tell me

When can I free my soul?

Why you left me with these painful memories

is still a mystery for me

Tell me the truth is this what you want?

Leaving me without a words

Ah....it would be easier for me to bear

this painful grief if you said goodbye

An everlasting grief

2008-01-16T18:07:00.000-08:00

Seems this endless grief

Will never meets the end

Too many question left behind

Where should I walk,

Without you leading the way?

What should I do?

There is nothing I can do

Oh… tell me why all I can see is just

An everlasting grief

....

2008-01-15T20:12:00.000-08:00

How am I supposed to do?

You leave me alone in the dark

Where there no one I can hold on to

Tell me,

How to stop these falling tears

As your memory won’t leave me

I tried each time its falls

But the pain is too real

Hopping the winds will blow

Away your memory

And the sands of time

Will slowly ends up everything behind

Really there’s nothing I can do

A letter to him

2008-01-04T00:50:00.000-08:00

Dearest,

Only night will know how much I miss you
Only darkness will know how much I need you
To pull my blanket, to sing a lullaby for me

Did you know
I'm lonely without you?
Did you know
I'm lost without you
Did you?

Did you see
All my tears are for you?
Did you see
I lost my guide?
Did you?

Never thought you're gone this fast
If there's a post-man up there
You'll received my letter to you
everyday....

Cup of Coffee

2008-01-02T19:41:00.000-08:00

Is it the taste or the logo that attached to it, which one do you like? for me I just love starbucks not just because of the logo nor the pride, just simply the taste and environment, Lagi pula aku suka English Muffin nya starbucks, Yummy...kopi nya juga beda dari kopi-bin, Manhattan Kopi, ato pun kopi siantar...starbucks just perfect to me, still remember how I use to run to KLCC from Kelana Jaya, just to get frappuccino Mocha, chilled for a while, running away from reality just for a moment.

Tapi, sejak pulang ke Indonesia, Medan lebih tepatnya aku gak pernah sekalipun ngupi-ngupi di starbucks, why?? karena baru kerasa kopinya MAHAL..ahhaah...baru kerasa bayar 20rb -an untuk kopi kok kayaknya gak wajar ihihi..lagian yg nongkrong di starbucks kok banyak OomOom dan Esmud2 yang sepertinya nongkrong demi gengsi, trus juga starbucks di SunPlaza lokasi nya gak nyaman...berisik!! gak kayak di KLCC atau Bintang Walk bisa liat-liat mobil berseliweran ato orang2 baru pulang kantor, rasanya enak...banget

Huhuhu...I miss Starbucks Bintang Walk!
I miss my starbucks moment

~sigh~